i can't

i can't admit even
to myself how you came
to inhabit that empty spot within
how even now when i
look inward, i see
you

i can't erase your scent
from my senses, your
touch from my memory

you took me further
than i'd gone before and
now i can't go back

i can't say any of this
to you, i can't break
the barrier i put up
but i can't move on

i know, i've tried but
he wasn't you.